hi blog,
i'm typing from my mobile today and i thought.. Hey! I haven't visited this place for a long time x) i'm in the midst of my test still whiles everyone is actually having a fun time now, i'm not typically complaining about it but i find it somehow a little pissing off because i'm just stuck at home. And i've actually lost the mood. Its certainly not good to feel this way, so i'm trying really hard right now. Heh! Yeah? Trying hard? Like blogging? Nice try x)
Anyway, the day has come where my hopes and dreams and most importantly future lies ahead. I'm finally at my last few days of high school and probably another 2 months and a little bit more days before i actually turn 18. I know right! I'm so old. Not really.. Actually.. Haha!
Well, the sad thing about now is that i realise i do not have much time left at the place i'm in right now. No, i'm not writing a suicidal note. Well, people would know what i'm talking about. That is if they do read this post.. I just realise that i haven't let go off one person until today. Its been about 3 years i think? Yeah, and this isn't really a good thing. Well thats because our days are numbered. I sometimes wish God would give me some fantasy imaginations to come through and make this the memorable month. But it seems like everything is just normal. I get butterflies now and then. I mean, ohmygosh!!! I'm still getting butterflies at this kinda age.. But its true. This is the kind of impact i get from you but i don't think you seem to see it. Or maybe you know but you're just trying to avoid the best you can. Like 'oh, she ah! Run away man.. I'm terrified' i really don't know what the situation is like now but i certainly wish that this would come to my liking. Thats only to MY liking. Maybe you're liking it the way it is now? I don't know.
Its good to let some feelings off here because i know this is rarely read by people. And i'm glad i've spoke my mind here. I should head back to some chinese work now..
Goodbye blog and i love you.
